I feel as if there is a huge hole inside of me with nothing to fill it. I try looking for the root of my problems but I’ve run from them for so long idk if I can ever truly be rid of this feeling. For moments in time people take this away… I take it away but in a cowardly way. I want to just start over. I feel everyone I know is jaded from how I treat them. I’m selfish and I don’t think I’m a good person, I’ve always had good intentions but lets face it intentions don’t mean shit. It’s our actions that define us. People say I’m an asshole all the time. I wonder if I’ve just been in denial for a good portion of my life. This isn’t me feeling sorry myself, this isn’t a cry for help, this is me and my thoughts.